am i the only one i know waging my wars behind my face and above my throat?

uff! me puse a leer posts viejos y para qué. mi vida era igual de aburrida, sólo que me gustaba mi carrera. no recuerdo haber estado tan enamorada de la biología, o la "ciencia" como le dicen los mortales (dios! cómo odio esa palabra! "ciencia", no "mortales"). casi que me da un poco de asco leerlo y saber que se supone que se trata de la misma persona. lo más terrible es no saber en qué momento cambió. por qué no me gusta ahora. no recuerdo ese momento en que pensé "estuve equivocada todo este tiempo, esto es una mierda"; como que en mi cerebro siempre fue una caca.

all we are is an isle of flightless birds

we find our worth in giving birth and stuff

we're lining our homes against winding roads

and we think the going is tough

we pick songs to sing, remind us of things that nobody cares about

and honestly we're probably more suicidal than ever now

tal cual, Tyler. tal.y.cual.

en palabras de mi yo del 2013: la vida es una mierda, quiero vivir en un libro, en su defecto en una serie (de preferencia inglesa), en su defecto una película (en idioma original, obvio).

me voy a la chota con esta versión de "Fall Away" en vivo que todos sabemos que es espectacular. estúpido y sensual (y talentoso) Dr. Blum.

tyjø bailando, tho.

stay alive, frens |-/

there's an infestation in my mind's imagination

i hope they choke on smoke 'cause i'm smoking them out the basement
this is not rap this is not hip-hop just another attempt to make the voices stop
rapping to prove nothing just writing to say something
'cause i wasn't the only one who wasn't rushing to say nothing
this doesn't mean i lost my dream
it's just right now i've got a really crazy mind to clean

stay alive, frens |-/

necesito lluvia... STAT!

hace demasiado calor y yo acá mirando videos de hormigas (long story), me derrito. además de que es fin de año y lo odio. ugh alsjdalksjdlkajsdlkasldjl qué garcha, es como mi cumpleaños, para qué festejar el término de algo (o el comienzo ¿?), no me gusta... me angustia por alguna razón que no puedo explicar. no sé si es el calor, si es que no puedo lidiar bien con los cambios, o si quizás es porque estoy escuchando canciones de Tyler Joseph que son emo as fuck. Tampoco puedo dejar de pensar en cómo me siento identificada con esa parte del bridge de "Forest", la que dice:

i don't understand why everything i adore takes a different form when i squint my eyes. have you ever done that? when you squint your eyes and your eyelashes make it look a little not right, and then with just enough light comes from just the right side and you find you're not who you're supposed to be?

estúpido y sensual Tyler Joseph es como si estuviera adentro de mi cerebro. no me pasaba esto desde Gerard... estúpido y sensual Gerard que mató My Chemical Romance. ¡ugh! te odio, gordo puto... mentira. no lo puedo odiar. volviendo a Tyler... ah, ya no sé nada, hace demasiado calor para pensar. pero qué lindo sería poder cambiar quién soy o qué hago. al menos por un tiempo, no sé, para ver qué se siente hacer otra cosa, ser otra persona. por ejemplo, ser una persona que ama lo que hace, ¿o que hace lo que ama? da igual... just change for a while, or... forever.

me voy a la garcha (a seguir viendo videos de hormigas, o quizás a resolver el fifteen-minute-melee del SSBM porque me siento con ganas de matar gente) con este video de Josh Dun:

¿cómo puede ser tan lindo y tan talentoso a la vez? <3

stay alive, frens |-/

twenty|øne|piløts

happy birthday self-titled.
what an amazing album... stupid sexy Tyler Jøseph: i love your brain.

If you're listening to this... you're the Resistance.-

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TØPxMM

holy. fucking. shit.

ohmygod! it starts off with "Heathens" which i fucking love so much and everybody made such a great job on it. i mean, i haven't seen/heard/listened to much Mutemath, but these guys can play (obviously, because they've been around for quite a while now)! and Tyler's vocals were ON POINT. i mean: ear-melting... so good!

"Heavydirtysoul" was a dream come true: it sounded just like the album but with every sound going on live, it was so beautiful i cried. so many things going on in that song at the same time and all of them boys played so flawlessly. standing ovation, frens. (i loved how Tyler didn't know what to do with his hands, like he was missing his tambourine during the chorus)

"Ride" was nice. i love that song, but particularly during the first half of the second verse i thought it was weak. what i mean to say is: by changing it i think they took something out of it... i don't know, power? maybe? or maybe i'm just missing something... that outro, tho! overall, i loved it. also: Tyler dacing. if that doesn't save lives, nothing does. <3

i didn't like "Tear In My Heart" for the same reason: that song, the way it was written, is such a beautiful power ballad, and they took that away from it and just completely changed it. if this was the only version of the song i think i'd be ok with it, but having listened to the original one, i pretty much think they ruined it. but then, there's Josh playing the trumpet and Tyler dancing again #GimmeTwentyOneOfThose. <3

"Lane Boy". Josh FUCKING Dun. what a talented dude, man... the ending of this song was literaly mind-blowing. not only Josh's solo but the outro with that drum duel. i never wanted it to end! i feel like the proper description could be: asldkjalskdjlaksjdlkajsdlkajslkdjalksdjalksjdas. yep, no real, understandable words.

this was such a beautiful end of the year present for such a dull, tragic year. 2016 has taken way too much from us, and this: this proves that this life is still worth living. so much talent, so much love for music in one room.

twenty øne piløts & Mutemath.

make this happen again.

make it happen forever.

stay alive, frens |-/

P.S.: during the whole 25 minutes and 31 seconds i was waiting for Tyler to pick up his ukey... but he never did u.u

If you're listening to this... you're the Resistance.-

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twenty øne piløts, everybody... #BestFrens

If you're listening to this... you're the Resistance.-

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