gorgeous.

she kinda makes want summer again.

which is totally fucked up because i LOVE autum and winter (which are the coming seasons on my side of the world right now- fuck yeah).

but i guess Dodie makes everything better.

(and in case anyone cares, i’m not OK- not entirely)

~talk’s a waste of time~

why is she so pretty?!

i mean, look at her! she’s adorable and... perfect.

thank you Dodie: you have blessed my day.

i love you.

~talk’s a waste of time~

bolder than before. bluer than the sky.

Dodie is such a strong person. i admire her so much.

i want the best of the best for her. she deserves the best of the best.

so does Emma. this friendship rules.

i love them both.

~talk’s a waste of time~

“Sick Of Losing Soulmates” - dodie

what a strange being you are.
God knows where i would be

if you hadn't found me sitting all alone in the dark.

[...]

what the Hell would i be without you?

this reminds me of my best friend. i’m really emotional about this song lately and i don’t really know why? maybe because my best friend is on the other side of the World right now and i miss her. i mean, she’s on vacation having fun and i’m happy for her (obviously), but i don’t know. i just really miss her.

because what the Hell would i be without her?

~talk’s a waste of time~

human > flawed > perfect > i love her.

i wanna see her live so bad! why the fucking fuck do i live in South America?! T_T

i feel like she needs a hug.

i wanna give her a hug.

~talk’s a waste of time~

Would You Be So Kind? - live | dodie

oh, would you be so kind as to fall in love with me?

you see, i'm trying.

i know you know that i like you but that's not enough.

so if you will, please fall in love.

i think it's only fair.

there's gotta be some butterflies somewhere, wanna share?

'cause i like you but that's not enough.

so if you will, please fall in love with me.

~talk's a waste of time~

there will be a day when you can say you're okay and mean it

i promise you it'll all make sense again.

~talk's a waste of time~

feelings... loads and loads of feelings

so, after a while (it’s been literally a couple of hours, but still) i feel a lot better about my career situation. don’t get me wrong, i still fucking hate it, i still wanna fucking quit. BUT, i’m more in a fuck-it-i’m-just-gonna-finish-it-for-the-goddamn-glory kinda way (unless i get a job, then it’s bye-bye-bitch-you’re-dead-to-me-see-you-in-Hell!). it won’t mean anything; the glory, i mean. there’s still no glory in this fucking career or everything that comes after finishing it but oh fuck it. what am i on about? where was this post going?

i’ve been watching a lot of Dodie Clark (aka: doddleoddle) vlogs/videos, and i’ve came to realize how good it feels to just write shit down. i mean, i came across the “am i oversharingggg too much” video and i realized how broken she really is (don’t get me wrong, i adore her and admire her. i genuinely look up to her). and how much i am just like her. only that she has millions of viewers and i have literally zero readers here (not even my friends read this blog and they’re all aware of its existence- but like i said in a previous post (or future post actually, cuz i haven’t published it yet (it’s a long story)) no one really cares what you have to say). man, i’m so sorry for all those unnecessary parentheses.

anyways: what i’m saying is, she felt the need to share her insecurities and the way she was feeling when she’d hit rock bottom, and lately i kinda feel the same way. again, the difference being me sharing my feelings/(mental) unhealthy thoughts serves no harm whatsoever to anyone because no one has access to it. well, everybody has access to it, but- oh, you know what i mean.

you can expect me to come back to my whining somewhen very soon, i presume (hopefully no, though).

~talk’s a waste of time~