"Push"
Have you ever felt like you are doing all the hard work? Like everything that has been done is because of you? You look back into the past and you realize that it's been you all along. That it never was a give and take relationship, that the other person always took. Every. Single. Time. And you just give and give and give until you could no more, until love became hatred, until... you could push no more.
Picture for a moment that having a relationship is like pushing a chair together; only in this situation, the only person pushing the chair is you, and the other half of the relationship is just sitting on the chair letting you do all the hard work. But you didn't mind at first. You kept pushing and pushing as the other person became heavier and heavier. And somewhere, along the great road of life you tell yourself: "why am I doing all the pushing here?!"; so you let go. And you keep walking alone. You leave the other person sitting on that chair, expecting for them to catch up with you... with or without the chair. But you look back several years later and they are still stuck in the same position you left them. Still sitting on that chair like their legs didn't work. Worst part is you're tempted to go and try to help them. Best part: there's some else in your life now, pushing a brand new chair with you, and they say: "it's not worth it. It never was". They hold your hand and you look forward again and keep pushing that new chair. Because that is really all you can do. Push.
xo-
~ if you're listening to this... you are the resistance ~
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