... i told my mom that i wasn’t in any hurry to get my university degree. yay, me! i mean, it technically makes me loser, but: yay, me! i faced my mom!
let me backtrack on that: i’ve got a job interview on Wednesday (i’ll update you on that but i’m hoping i do good and get the job) which a friend’s mother set up for me (God bless her, she’s an angel) and i told my mom and she was happy about it.
the thing is: it’s a 9 to 5 job, so she said “oh, but when are you gonna study for your exams?”, and i said “oh, don’t worry about it, i’ll manage”. and i swear i was gonna leave it at that but no, i had to go ahead and dig a grave for myself because why the fuck no, right? so i told her that i wasn’t in any hurry to graduate anyways, and she FREAKED! saying that if i didn’t graduated ASAP then i would never and blah blah blah. also she said “are you gonna throw away all my effort to put you through university?!”. i mean, she’s not wrong, but it isn’t about you, lady! it’s about me and not being happy with my career. like i know i lost the last 10 years of my life, too. calm down.
in her defense, she thought i was gonna drop everything, which i’m not. i’m only gonna take it slower. like, having a job is gonna take a lot of pressure off doing good in the finals, because at the end of the day i’m gonna be pulling my weight at home.
right now i feel like a fucking parasite, even more so than when i was going to class. now that i’m all day at home i just feel like a hobo, even if i am studying.
but who knows? if it’s meant to be it’ll be, and what’s done is done.
UPDATE!
it’s Wednesday.
fuck this job.
fuck these people.
fuck my life.
fuck everything.
UPDATE No. 2!
(it's still Wednesday, by the way)
i was really angry when i got out of the interview, because i felt the boss treated me like shit (also: why did i have to talk to the boss? is that a thing? i thought on a first interview you only talked to the HR peeps. but, oh well). anyways, so i was really angry and so i went back home listening to The Used (they're my go-to-boys when i need picking up). then "The Bird And The Worm" came in and it hit me.
this song exists. this band exists. these people got together to make amazing music. they exist. they bless us with music still to this day, since 2002. and all of a sudden i felt better. i felt like the interview didn't even matter anymore. because this song exists:
if i don't get the job, it doesn't matter. i'll keep looking, it's not the end of the World. in the meantime, i'll keep apreciating the good things in life. like family, friends and art in all its forms: music, series, movies, books and comics.
laters, losers.
UPDATE No. 2!
(it's still Wednesday, by the way)
i was really angry when i got out of the interview, because i felt the boss treated me like shit (also: why did i have to talk to the boss? is that a thing? i thought on a first interview you only talked to the HR peeps. but, oh well). anyways, so i was really angry and so i went back home listening to The Used (they're my go-to-boys when i need picking up). then "The Bird And The Worm" came in and it hit me.
this song exists. this band exists. these people got together to make amazing music. they exist. they bless us with music still to this day, since 2002. and all of a sudden i felt better. i felt like the interview didn't even matter anymore. because this song exists:
if i don't get the job, it doesn't matter. i'll keep looking, it's not the end of the World. in the meantime, i'll keep apreciating the good things in life. like family, friends and art in all its forms: music, series, movies, books and comics.
laters, losers.
~talk’s a waste of time~
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